‘Even in prison, one can be free’—aid worker killed by Islamist ISIS

In this May 30, 2013, photo, Kayla Mueller is shown after speaking to a group in Prescott, Arizona. A statement that appeared on a militant website commonly used by the Islamic State group claimed that Mueller was killed in a Jordanian airstrike on Friday, Feb. 6, 2015, on the outskirts of the northern Syrian city of Raqqa, the militant group’s main stronghold. The IS statement could not be independently verified. AP

The family of Kayla Jean Mueller said Tuesday it had received confirmation that she died while being held by Islamic State militants. The Mueller family released a letter it said she had written last year.

In the letter, Mueller told loved ones that “even in prison, one can be free. I am grateful.”

The Pentagon said Mueller was taken hostage by the Islamic State of Iraq and Syria (ISIS) in August 2013 while leaving a hospital in Syria. Her captivity had been kept secret for her safety.

Mueller had gone to the Middle East to help civilians gravely affected by armed conflict.

Last week, the ISIS claimed that Mueller had been killed in a Jordanian airstrike, but the Pentagon and Western security analysts belied this.

Western authorities said ISIS killed Mueller and the terrorist Islamist group was only blaming Jordan.

Here is the text as provided by the family, which also redacted some portions:

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Everyone, If you are receiving this letter it means I am still detained but my cell mates (starting from 11/2/2014) have been released. I have asked them to contact you + send you this letter. It’s hard to know what to say. Please know that I am in a safe location, completely unharmed + healthy (put on weight in fact); I have been treated w/ the utmost respect + kindness. I wanted to write you all a well thought out letter (but I didn’t know if my cell mates would be leaving in the coming days or the coming months restricting my time but primarily) I could only but write the letter a paragraph at a time, just the thought of you all sends me into a fit of tears.

If you could say I have “suffered” at all throughout this whole experience it is only in knowing how much suffering I have put you all through; I will never ask you to forgive me as I do not deserve forgiveness. I remember mom always telling me that all in all in the end the only one you really have is God. I have come to a place in experience where, in every sense of the word, I have surrendered myself to our creator b/c literally there was no else.. + by God + by your prayers I have felt tenderly cradled in freefall. I have been shown in darkness, light + have learned that even in prison, one can be free. I am grateful. I have come to see that there is good in every situation, sometimes we just have to look for it. I pray each each day that if nothing else, you have felt a certain closeness + surrender to God as well + have formed a bond of love + support amongst one another. I miss you all as if it has been a decade of forced separation. I have had many a long hour to think, to think of all the things I will do w/ Lex, our first family camping trip, the first meeting @ the airport. I have had many hours to think how only in your absence have I finally @ 25 years old come to realize your place in my life.

The gift that is each one of you + the person I could + could not be if you were not a part of my life, my family, my support. I DO NOT want the negotiations for my release to be your duty, if there is any other option take it, even if it takes more time. This should never have become your burden. I have asked these women to support you; please seek their advice. If you have not done so already, (REDACTED) can contact (REDACTED) who may have a certain level of experience with these people. None of us could have known it would be this long but know I am also fighting from my side in the ways I am able + I have a lot of fight left inside of me. I am not breaking down + I will not give in no matter how long it takes. I wrote a song some months ago that says, “The part of me that pains the most also gets me out of bed, w/out your hope there would be nothing left.” aka_The thought of your pain is the source of my own, simultaneously the hope of our reunion is the source of my strength. Please be patient, give your pain to God. I know you would want me to remain strong. That is exactly what I am doing. Do not fear for me, continue to pray as will I + by God’s will we will be together soon.

All my everything,

Kayla

This image provided by the Mueller family shows a photocopy of a letter the family says was written to them by Kayla Jean Mueller in spring 2014. The family said Tuesday, Feb. 10, 2015, it had received confirmation that Mueller died while being held by Islamic State militants. AP

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